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Alex, I'll Take Anal Probing for 300 Points!


Many of you are aware that I have had some ongoing medical issues for some time. I want to thank everyone for their concern and encouragement. I’ll admit to being somewhat of a “baby” in this manner. I’m sure to be adding to the stereotype of men not being able to handle illness without someone around to care for them. What adds to this is that for most of my life, physically I have felt fine and my body adapts to most stressors and I come away better for it. These past months have thrown me, my body has not adjusted and come bouncing back to relative health. This has just been another reminder of wasted youthful days and the impermanence of my body and my time here. Some days have been better than others and I vacillate between openness and disclosure and then at other times shutting down physically and emotionally.  I've not felt well for some time and I have become frustrated with the process of discovering what is going on with my body. To counteract  any rumors of my demise, here’s what I know:

·         Diagnosed as hyperanemic
·         Had many, many needles in my arms drawing off this precious elixir of the gods “the life is in the   blood”
·         Tests, tests, and more tests (and more tests to come)
·         Cameras, anal probes, snip snips in my upper and lower G.I. track. Anal and oral probes (that sounds so dirty doesn’t it?) give me a relatively clean bill of health. No oddities, gerbils, ping pong balls or lost civilizations found. My G spot has still not been found
·         I’m being referred as of now to hematology/oncology specialists in Kingsport
I’m fatigued and grouchy much of the time.  I’m sorry if I come across overly harsh or short at times. I’m a bit more spacey than normal and forgetful of basic everyday things.  I’m successful if I practice a little mindfulness and this seems to center me. I just have to remind myself to do this, to be present NOW and to appreciate things. I do appreciate you, thank you everyone for being in my life.  J

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